Thursday, December 30, 2010

Heard Him...loud and clear

The past 6 months have been rough with numerous 'hits' to our family, and it seems that God has been quiet. I realized not because of Him choosing to do so, but because my heart seems to have strayed further and further away.... a heart full of anger, resentment, disappointment, depression drowns out the voice of my Father. Taming my heart and placing it back in His hands has been hard. Constantly reminding myself that He holds a bigger understanding and picture than I, that I need to trust him solely as my navigator though life. That I don't need to understand now, I need to obey so that I can understand someday.

My prayers the last couple of months have simply been that I hear his wishes so that I know what He wants for my life. The past couple of weeks I've been hearing what I thought was Him...through things that happen, through the feeling in my stomach, through the kids. Tonight while driving home from minor emergency during the remainder of rush hour traffic - in the newly fallen 8" of snow, full of frustrated, tired drivers making stupid, risky choices - I said a prayer... simply "God, tell me which route to take to get us home safely."

"Go left." was clear as day
"Hmmm, you sure!? The radio says there's a jack knifed semi at that intersection down there."
"GO left"

I went left. No traffic, no danger, smooth sailing all the way home. Now, I'm not saying we wouldn't have been fine if I had gone straight, but my gut was clearly telling me that the voice I heard was dead on...I needed to go left to get my kids home safely.

I heard loud and clear and obeyed. Thank you God!

1 comment:

  1. "That I don't need to understand now, I need to obey so that I can understand someday."

    So very true...it's hard for me to let go and not be a control freak

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